I am a Christian. I am NOT Christ. No kidding, right? I am no where near being perfect. In fact, I proved to my own self just how imperfect I am a couple days ago. I saw my human side and, I have to tell you, I really didn't like myself very much. I have kinda beaten myself up over my sinfulness since then.
Today, while getting in a little cardio-time, I was going through my playlist looking for some upbeat music. I started playing some Mandisa songs, through which I always find encouragement, and one of her more recent songs came up. Read a snippet of her lyrics from Unfinished.
...I picked myself back up
And I started telling me
No, my God's not done
Making me a masterpiece
He's still working on me
He started something good and I'm gonna believe it
He started something good and He's gonna complete it
So I'll celebrate the truth
His work in me ain't through
I'm just unfinished....
Still workin'
Still, still workin' on me
He's still workin'
Still, still workin' on me
Thank you, Father, that you haven't given up on me yet. I am unfinished, indeed! I am discovering my heart and mind have some crevices I never knew existed, and they are filled with selfishness, pride, envy.... Let's just call it like You see it. SIN. These little "issues" I have are sin in Your eyes. As I seek to know You more intimately, You are exposing the areas of my own life that I thought were good enough.
I am thankful, Father, for David's Psalm to remind me that while You formed me, created me from absolutely nothing more than dust, You know every part of me. You loved me from the very moment You designed me, through every moment prior to my accepting Your Son, and You continue to love me even now. As Your child, I disappoint You with my sinful thoughts and actions. Yet, even still, You love me. You haven't given up on me.
"Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting."
Dear Reader, take a moment and go to Psalm 139 and put yourself in the psalmist's chair. I know I have. God knows your every thought (vs. 1-6). While there is nowhere to hide from Him, you can also be assured there is nowhere where you will be alone, without His presence (vs. 7-12). The very One who created you is thinking of you every second of every day (13-18). When you accept Christ into your life, He is writing your testimony. Your testimony is one of love and forgiveness, but also of protection from the evil that once separated you from Him, the very same evil that continues to try and tear you away from Him, but it cannot (vs. 19-24). You are God's child. He is your loving Father.
Forgiveness is available. Just ask.
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